Eternity is a VERY LONG TIME. Don't be on the outside when that door closes. No matter what you have done IF you are truly sorry and you seriously NEVER intend to repeat your mistakes intentionally YOUR Father WILL forgive you completely!
Pray to Him now. Don't wait. Jesus will come like a thief in the night...be ready to go with Him.
All you have to do is this:
In your own words tell Him you accept Him as your Lord and Savior.
Tell Him how sorry you are and list your transgressions to Him.
Tell Him you will do your best to NEVER act or be that way again.
Tell Him you NEED His help and ask Him to help you and guide you.
Ask Him to send His Holy Spirit to strengthen you and be with you.
Then talk to Him everyday all day...in your heart and mind.
Read the Bible and let Him guide you through it.
You WILL FEEL His presence and you WILL be amazed at how things begin to happen in your life.
Let me put it this way. How's your life going now? Are you happy? Do you have peace? Do you know where your going when you leave this world? You have handled your own life up to now...how's that working for you?
The definition of insanity is to continue to do the same things and expect different results.
Why not try something different? Why not give Jesus a chance to help you? YOU WILL NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN!
Once you have received God's forgiveness then you will want to forgive all others to begin your healing and your new life as an heir to the throne...see the video below!